Through the darkest valleys

I knew Jesus briefly as a teenager, through my sister, but I chose a path of drinking, smoking and one-night stands. I had an abortion at 16. I then completely turned my back on God for 15 years, and thought Christianity was boring.

By my late twenties, my life seemed pointless. I still hadn’t found ‘Mr Right’, had no children, was unhappy at work, and was in and out of destructive relationships. I was living in the Lake District when I had an encounter with God. Walking up a hill one Sunday morning, I looked at the beautiful landscape and I realised that God loved me despite everything and I wasn’t alone. I wanted to thank Him personally for all the good things in my life so I rushed to the nearest church. My journey with God started right there, but there was still a lot to overcome.

I was diagnosed with bipolar aged 32 after suffering extreme mood swings which made me either depressed or manic. I lost my job, had suicidal thoughts, got into unsuitable relationships, had another abortion, was in debt. Even when I came back to God it was so hard to walk the path intended for me.

I was on medication for 6 years and in that time Jesus put my life back on track. I chose to follow God and settled back to work, enjoyed being planted in the house of God and serving in my church. Married ‘Mr Right’, an amazing and loving man who God chose just for me! Now we are blessed with two beautiful daughters. (Romans 8:28 is so true!)

I came off medication in 2012 by faith, firmly trusting God every day – (1 Kings 5:4) ‘The Lord my God has given me peace on every side, I have no enemies and all is well.’

Psalm 23 helped me through the dark times: ‘Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid because God is beside me’. Now I can say with confidence, ‘Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life’.